Creativity

An Abandoned Prayer

The abandoned prayer lost in the shadows of silence,

Engulfed in the fire of a mind,

Few sacred words that none else shall hear,

Drowned in the sea of a conscience,

If these words should surface amongst the sand,

Washed by the waves of change,

Then treat them well and keep them safe,

Because you’ll never hear them again.

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Anniversary of my creation.

Today marks 18 years since I was finally rolled off the production line and shipped out to a loving family. I came with my software bugs and some hardware issues, but I’ve fought them head on and will continue to do so.

I might not be the most attractive model available, I might not have that much memory or processing speed, and even though I’m sometimes likely to crash and need a reboot, I know I can do anything if I put in the hard work and stop blogging at 1AM.

Even though I know they won’t see it I’d like every one who wished me a happy birthday that I’m truly grateful.

I hope you’re all having a good daytime cycle.

~James

Me and my stepdad.

So my mum has been seeing my stepdad for around 8 years now and it’s only in recent years I’ve realised exactly how much of a complete arsehole he is. He’s one of those people who EXPECTS you to do a job because he’s an adult and apparently that merits some kind of award and makes everyone under 18 his personal litter box to shit on.

He just demands respect from people not actually realising that respect doesn’t work that way, that’s not respect; it’s fear, the exact opposite. He’ll go on about how I can do half a job (but all of what he’s told me to do) and yet won’t even thank me for doing it. He’ll go on about “if I was in the real world” or “in a real job”, yeah well if I was in a real job I’d be getting paid and wouldn’t just be expected to do a job for someone I don’t even work for.

Today’s problem is my room, apparently. Because somehow it’s the bane of his existence if a room in a house he doesn’t even live in, isn’t up to his unrealistic minimalist standards.

The only reason I can think of that’d make him want me to clean my room is so his 2 braincells don’t get distracted when he barges in to tell me to do more jobs he won’t appreciate or thank me for.

This rant was brought to you by my tendency to express anger creatively rather than keeping it inside me.

Hope you’re all having wonderful days.

Major Arcana – An Album

After putting it off for a while I’ve finally decided to attempt writing a full album. I’ve decided it’s going to be made up of 8-10 tracks which will be demo-recorded and written at home, then mixed and mastered at college.

I’m aiming for kind of an emo/pop punk vibe mainly but with some less generic things added, taking influence from metal and djent genres for a couple of the heavier tracks. I might try and wiggle in some electronic and synthesised elements here and there but I highly doubt it would work unless I combined it with metal to make metal-core.

I decided to call the album major Arcana because I’m using the 22 major arcana cards in my deck of tarot cards to come up with lyrical ideas. At present I’m debating to either randomise the cards or think through the combinations, there are 22 major Arcana cards, if I wanted to use them all then I could either do,

  • 11 tracks (2 cards each)
  • 6 tracks (4 each)

This doesn’t sound practical at all so I’m probably going to use elements and meanings of each card somewhere in a track but perhaps some less pronounced than others, for example I could use the High Priestess Card for the most part of a song but use The Fool for lyrical ideas for a middle 8 of the song.

Why Tarot? I hear you not asking. Well, Tarot cards are described on www.thoughtco.com as the following;

Tarot cards are one of many forms of divination. They are commonly used to measure potential outcomes and evaluate influences surrounding a person, an event, or both.

With that being said, each and every Tarot card has a meaning, symbolism or a story you could possibly come up with regarding the graphic used. Here is an example;

Magician Tarot Card Meanings tarot card meaning

Card I (02/72) The Magician

The Magician is associated with the planet, Mercury and carries with it skill, logic, and intellect. The number of the Magician is one, the number of beginnings. The Magician is the bridge between the world of the spirit and the world of humanity.From biddytarot.com

A person can read as many books as they want about tarot, but the cards are mere tools for us to use as people. The true “magic” comes from us, the people who use them. You can assign your own meanings to tarot cards (within reason), as many people have different perspectives and outlooks on the symbolism used. The black cat sat under the queen of wands could mean bad luck looming to one person, or the taming of a persons misfortune to another. This makes the deck more personal and gives it a personal connection to the reader.

There is a remaining 50 cards left for the minor arcana section (72 cards total), and I will probably use them to generate lyrical meanings and ideas in the future, but for now I plan on keeping it simple and use the 22 most important cards in the Rider Waite Tarot Deck.

I’ll be sure to keep you guys up to date on what I do! I’ll probably post some samples and previews on here if I’m able to! I’m aiming to get this released next year so I’m pretty excited about this whole experience.

As always I hope you’re all well and I’ll see you guys later! x

~James

Apart

It’s okay to be not okay,

It’s okay to feel alone, 

It’s okay to miss her face,

When you’re a lifetime away from home.

It’s good to feel wanted,

Even better to feel welcome,

It’s normal to feel daunted,

When she’s with someone so handsome.

It’s great when you’re together,

It’s grey when you’re apart,

It’s great to spend our time forever,

Especially when we’re apart.

—* not sure if poetry is something I’m shy good at.

Music Creates

As musicians we have a duty to entertain, reach out and touch the people who hear us, to create a euphoric escape or make a house into a home.

We listen to notes carefully, mindfully picking notes with delicacy like sacred fruit from a musical tree.

But more often than not its the music that creates, not us. We are but messengers who convey the sounds that enter the canals that lead to your heart. Nothing more than the ones who write the words on paper for a letter you recieve.

But this is better than a letter, letters are plain and simple, you know what they mean and there’s nothing more to them, not music.

Music is open to interpretation, music can mean one thing to one person and another to the next.

Music creates escape, music creates goodness as well as evil. Music creates idols whom we worship with each listen, it creates a door which opens up into worlds we’d never dream of.

We might make the music, but the music makes you.

James Thomas

Musical Journal #1 Schwarzer Frietag

These are a new thing I’m doing mainly to help cope with my crippling anxiety and introverted personality, haha.
Basically I do a lot of songs in my spare time, just little tunes really, but I like putting them on the internet to  share my passion with a total 28 people on my Musical Channel, and the 218 on my main YouTube Channel.

This song is a lo-fi Bauhaus-inspired piano, bass and drum tune, I was watching one of my favourite YouTubers “It’s Black Friday” when I had this idea, so the name is Black Friday in German, the most Gothic language I could think of, haha.

These will get more serious and deeply emotional in time, and I don’t care if people hate me for it, this is how I want to cope with life, and it’s already working for me. I love you all,

Goodbye for now ❤

~ James

A song for the EU Referendum

With the EU referendum coming up on the 23rd of June, the stakes seem to be getting higher, and the tension continues to rise, so it’s nice to know some people are able to take this lightly.

One of the school staff and his band wrote this, would you guys check it out for me?

And share around if possible,

Have a great day!
~James

Maria Sharapova Drug Abuse Scandal

Maria Sharapova is under increasing pressure to explain the how’s and why’s of her UN-NEEDED use the medication Meldonium, which is often prescribed for Heart Failure and Angina, but conveniently for Maria Sharapova it is also known to increase aerobic and physical ability.

Meldonium

It even LOOKS like a cheating drug, look at it’s beady eyes and it’s shifty figure, it looks like the kind of drug that would run off to Brazil with your wife to live in it’s lovely Summer house and go on bi-weekly camping holidays on its nice Rivera-branded Yacht and have lovely campfires on a beachside yurt while talking about British subjects like the weather.

Players were told five times in December that drug would be banned, and considering the drug is only supposed to be used for a TYPICAL PERIOD 4-6 weeks, surely if she was using it for legitimate purposes, she’d have finished by now, right?

Nope, she’s been using this for 10 years, and considering it’s so strong that it should be used for 3 MONTHS AT MAXIMUM, I can’t even begin to imagine how much effect this has had, and the potential DANGER she is under.mildronat-ampuly-svetlaya_1000x1000w

So if you see this dangerous character (pictured right) approach with caution, as this drug is highly dangerous and is a force to be reckoned with.

“I was walking to my local shop one day, and out of the corner of my eye, I spotted a rather shifty character on the street corner, with his arm leaned upon a Volkswagen Passat, he spoke with a strong Russian accent and in broken English,

I should have known he was dangerous when I noticed he was a 4″ inch tall box of pills, wearing a hat which covered the most of his eyes.

Before I knew it I was in the back of a 3 door Volkswagen Passat with a really scary looking Asparin sitting in the seat next to me, thankfully I was saved, due to the fact that there was no water to down the pills, so I was safe, and got away unharmed.”

However, this criminal is still on the loose on the streets of Croydon, and if you see him, contact the local authorities promptly, and do not under any circumstances make contact with what appears to be a 27 year old male, pill box. Has a long black beard and is always the driver.

I guess we’ll see Maria Sharapova in court, or I guess not, considering she’s being suspended from Tennis.

Have a super wonderful day!
~James